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i dont even know what is happenning to me now... for the past month, i've been suffering so much.. deeply wounded.. n broken hearted by sum1 dat i love the most... i felt like i've been betrayed, it's like i cant even trust myself. i've wasted so much tears.. n ending up it's not me the one who's made the mistake... it's juz an x-cuse, lame one though.. to free himself...from n 2b wit another person. i'm trying my best to forget about the past...n i'm going to start a new book of my life.. it's not a new chapter... instead it's new book... for me to re-write the whole thing all over again... but in different title though..but then... i dont haf the gut yet.. hafta pull myself together.. n start writing the stories...
arduous at 11/11/2005 03:05:00 AM it's been a long time i haven't update my blog... i tot i'm gone for good from legenda.. but.. i came back.. n my life there been like hell... for the past few months i tried to forget 'bout 'em.. after what they did 2 me.. but i still can't... it's not the worst part dat i've remembered but the moments dat we all cherished each other...the laughter,the sadness,joyfulness.. haf been shared by all of us... i was ditched by 'em easily... bcause they don't like for who i am.. it's not like i've betrayed their trust... spreads bad things 'bout 'em... they juz cuddnt xcept me for the way i am.. i admit it..i do have my rites n wrongs.. i appologize to 'em but.. they still ditched me away.. how could i forget those harsh words they've sent me.. the moment i've received the messages.. i was truly shocked.. it's worst than pain in the ass..juz try to imagine ... u were out from their lives for a month... out of the blue, u get harsh messages from them,at dat time i was flooded in tears. i tot dat time they took my life away..but..i've sat in silence..try to think back all the good memories.. at the end.. i've gained a lil' strength n replied dat msgs..i replied "thanks for evrything..anyway i'm dead to all of u,u all should be grateful!! i'll improve myself to b a better person n not to b spoken to any of u anymore..sorry for all the everythings dat i made u guys offended..one last thing thanks for "being" my friends." i hope i'm outta their life forever, coz to 'em i'm juz a burden.. eventho it's sad..but i've recovered from it..i found my self in new corums... where they can xcept me for who i am... it's not me the one who had the problem making friends.... i wish they could think outta box.. then they'll know what they did was wrong.. but now i'm glad it happened b4 i step in the wide-real-nasty-cruel world.. at least i've prepared my self if i'm gonna meet those kinda peeps.... hurm..deep in my heart..i wish dis cud neva happens..now, i juz wanna make my self a better person, a good friend, someone can be rely-on, most of all i want to make my loved ones proud of who i am... i wont let 'em down.. i still keep those harsh msgs..juz to motivate myself to live on,move on... and acheive my goals in live.. those msgs keep me going...further and further more towards find the true meaning of life n how to live my life to the fullest....
arduous at 4/16/2005 03:26:00 AM hmmm.. whut must i do... evrything is getting worst.. i felt everyone is fading away... i dunno why.. izzit my fault?? or them??? i juz dont know... this week is my last week in college.. soon i'll be gone for good.. when exam is around..dis kinda shit alwiz happens.. hate it so much... i can even spend my self alone in muh own room... i dun gedid... i need to study... which means... i hafta spend time with muh self alone.. in muh room..there would be no one except for me.. i hate what i'm feeling rite now... i hate it so much..izzit wrong to be alone?? juz by myself...
i need my bee so much... so bad.... only can understand me.. even me my self dun understand my behaviour... i'm so down.... badly... so badly... i think i juz wanna cry..n cry .. n cry.. coz i dunno what else to do... help me...help me... how do make this things back to normal... my probs.. i want it gone..i want my fwenz back... i'm so helpless.....
arduous at 10/28/2004 10:15:00 PM wargh... what am i gonna do... my time is running... 2months left for the deal.. if not i'm..dead... how do i put my weight off!!?? it's not easy... OMG.... can any1 tell me how to put off weight other than.. "not-eating".. i love foods... it's great cant live without it.. well actually this deal goes like this,it's few months ago.. my beloved bee=hafizi, ask me to put off weight..as in..thin.. not like a big tong besi like now.. if i can make it he'll stop smoking..then..he stopped smoking..n my weight still the same..n the figure also la..we've change the deal..within 3-months i hafta lose some weight..not really some but alot!!!n we had another deal.. we cant see each other during the 3months-period.. !! n time goes by.. like a single blink..huwaaa....:(( i miss him so bad!!! n my weight is not changing neither more nor lesser... what am i gonna... i'm so "mati-kutu"!!!
deeply miss my dearie bee..
arduous at 9/29/2004 01:14:00 AM
deeply miss my dearie bee..
arduous at 9/29/2004 01:14:00 AM woke up at 12... later on... had "brunch"...at 1... n then... watched tv,... it's juz an
ordinary day...hmmmm.. but i'm down... coz i'm dried of money... :( well what to do.. i
must go on.. no matter what happen next... hurm... thank god.. i've fully change this blog's ..skin
i had dis prob with a small cat... the name is ranma... it drives me crazy..upside down..
can u guys imagine that this ranma walk... to the edge of this apartment on a lil' aisle...
which ranma the only one can xcess it... hurrm.... this naughty ranma... iskiskisk..
n tommorow i dunno what 2 do... argh... yesterday i've surfed the net for jobs.. but i cuddnt make out my mind what kinda job
i wanna do.. well i hope "what ever will be will be" doesn't works...
argh... dammit!!! i'm outta 'ere...
arduous at 9/18/2004 01:19:00 AM hmm.. this morning wake.. as usual.... n.. went to class.... and as as usual..late for class... n muh lecturer... babbled...about 10 mins.. so bored man... then later.. had lunch.... after lunch.. went back to apartment... n muh housemate.. asked me to seremban n watch.."the village"... the story line is 'quite' interesting... but.. i'm still not satisfied..with the movie....
after watched the movie.. muh fren picked all of us up...n went to Nilai3 ... hahaha.. i bought a new desk... kewl... hahaha so starting from today i can online.. in a good posture..."as if" hahahha... later on , we went to nite market.. n one of muh houzmate maz.. got dis crayzee idea.. she wanted to cook.. so all we bought from nite market juz.. the ingredients...
final it comes to the end.... the food was delicious.... ALHAMDULILLAH... thanks to Allah... kenyang!!!!!..... hafta sign out buhbye.....
arduous at 8/17/2004 11:47:00 PM finally... this page is fully uploaded..... hmm.. last week, i went back home...guess what?? me' casa looked like was hit by an andrew tornado... hahahah it was very chaotic... i cuddn't stand it so.. i did evrything dat i cud... such s.. sweeps the floor, wash the floor,settle the messiness in living room.. later muh lil' sista help me out by cleaning the toilets... erm later on dat nite.. went out wif muh beloved bee.. for a quick supper...n the de days goes by.. later i watch AF with muh lil sis n muh dad.. it was very entertaining...i'd haf fun... the next day .. mum n muh bro got back from UK... hehehhe i got a new pair of boots... never had an idea to own a pair of boots.. i've tried it on... n.. hahah i cuddn't find a way to put it off.... hahahaha then muh mum gave me.. 3t-shirts.. nice.. n A'eh gave me an adidas orange jacket.... it's lovely... hahahha kewl.. within 1 day i haf lotsa new stuff.. oops... sowee.. didnt realize dat the time goes by so quick.. hafta do revision.. so any one out there who read muh so-not-entertaining blogg wish me all the for my test.. 2today.. c'ya later... chiow...
arduous at 8/10/2004 02:44:00 AM
arduous at 11/11/2005 03:05:00 AM it's been a long time i haven't update my blog... i tot i'm gone for good from legenda.. but.. i came back.. n my life there been like hell... for the past few months i tried to forget 'bout 'em.. after what they did 2 me.. but i still can't... it's not the worst part dat i've remembered but the moments dat we all cherished each other...the laughter,the sadness,joyfulness.. haf been shared by all of us... i was ditched by 'em easily... bcause they don't like for who i am.. it's not like i've betrayed their trust... spreads bad things 'bout 'em... they juz cuddnt xcept me for the way i am.. i admit it..i do have my rites n wrongs.. i appologize to 'em but.. they still ditched me away.. how could i forget those harsh words they've sent me.. the moment i've received the messages.. i was truly shocked.. it's worst than pain in the ass..juz try to imagine ... u were out from their lives for a month... out of the blue, u get harsh messages from them,at dat time i was flooded in tears. i tot dat time they took my life away..but..i've sat in silence..try to think back all the good memories.. at the end.. i've gained a lil' strength n replied dat msgs..i replied "thanks for evrything..anyway i'm dead to all of u,u all should be grateful!! i'll improve myself to b a better person n not to b spoken to any of u anymore..sorry for all the everythings dat i made u guys offended..one last thing thanks for "being" my friends." i hope i'm outta their life forever, coz to 'em i'm juz a burden.. eventho it's sad..but i've recovered from it..i found my self in new corums... where they can xcept me for who i am... it's not me the one who had the problem making friends.... i wish they could think outta box.. then they'll know what they did was wrong.. but now i'm glad it happened b4 i step in the wide-real-nasty-cruel world.. at least i've prepared my self if i'm gonna meet those kinda peeps.... hurm..deep in my heart..i wish dis cud neva happens..now, i juz wanna make my self a better person, a good friend, someone can be rely-on, most of all i want to make my loved ones proud of who i am... i wont let 'em down.. i still keep those harsh msgs..juz to motivate myself to live on,move on... and acheive my goals in live.. those msgs keep me going...further and further more towards find the true meaning of life n how to live my life to the fullest....
arduous at 4/16/2005 03:26:00 AM hmmm.. whut must i do... evrything is getting worst.. i felt everyone is fading away... i dunno why.. izzit my fault?? or them??? i juz dont know... this week is my last week in college.. soon i'll be gone for good.. when exam is around..dis kinda shit alwiz happens.. hate it so much... i can even spend my self alone in muh own room... i dun gedid... i need to study... which means... i hafta spend time with muh self alone.. in muh room..there would be no one except for me.. i hate what i'm feeling rite now... i hate it so much..izzit wrong to be alone?? juz by myself...
i need my bee so much... so bad.... only can understand me.. even me my self dun understand my behaviour... i'm so down.... badly... so badly... i think i juz wanna cry..n cry .. n cry.. coz i dunno what else to do... help me...help me... how do make this things back to normal... my probs.. i want it gone..i want my fwenz back... i'm so helpless.....
arduous at 10/28/2004 10:15:00 PM wargh... what am i gonna do... my time is running... 2months left for the deal.. if not i'm..dead... how do i put my weight off!!?? it's not easy... OMG.... can any1 tell me how to put off weight other than.. "not-eating".. i love foods... it's great cant live without it.. well actually this deal goes like this,it's few months ago.. my beloved bee=hafizi, ask me to put off weight..as in..thin.. not like a big tong besi like now.. if i can make it he'll stop smoking..then..he stopped smoking..n my weight still the same..n the figure also la..we've change the deal..within 3-months i hafta lose some weight..not really some but alot!!!n we had another deal.. we cant see each other during the 3months-period.. !! n time goes by.. like a single blink..huwaaa....:(( i miss him so bad!!! n my weight is not changing neither more nor lesser... what am i gonna... i'm so "mati-kutu"!!!
deeply miss my dearie bee..
arduous at 9/29/2004 01:14:00 AM
wargh... what am i gonna do... my time is running... 2months left for the deal.. if not i'm..dead... how do i put my weight off!!?? it's not easy... OMG.... can any1 tell me how to put off weight other than.. "not-eating".. i love foods... it's great cant live without it.. well actually this deal goes like this,it's few months ago.. my beloved bee=hafizi, ask me to put off weight..as in..thin.. not like a big tong besi like now.. if i can make it he'll stop smoking..then..he stopped smoking..n my weight still the same..n the figure also la..we've change the deal..within 3-months i hafta lose some weight..not really some but alot!!!n we had another deal.. we cant see each other during the 3months-period.. !! n time goes by.. like a single blink..huwaaa....:(( i miss him so bad!!! n my weight is not changing neither more nor lesser... what am i gonna... i'm so "mati-kutu"!!!
deeply miss my dearie bee..
arduous at 9/29/2004 01:14:00 AM woke up at 12... later on... had "brunch"...at 1... n then... watched tv,... it's juz an
ordinary day...hmmmm.. but i'm down... coz i'm dried of money... :( well what to do.. i
must go on.. no matter what happen next... hurm... thank god.. i've fully change this blog's ..skin
i had dis prob with a small cat... the name is ranma... it drives me crazy..upside down..
can u guys imagine that this ranma walk... to the edge of this apartment on a lil' aisle...
which ranma the only one can xcess it... hurrm.... this naughty ranma... iskiskisk..
n tommorow i dunno what 2 do... argh... yesterday i've surfed the net for jobs.. but i cuddnt make out my mind what kinda job
i wanna do.. well i hope "what ever will be will be" doesn't works...
argh... dammit!!! i'm outta 'ere...
arduous at 9/18/2004 01:19:00 AM hmm.. this morning wake.. as usual.... n.. went to class.... and as as usual..late for class... n muh lecturer... babbled...about 10 mins.. so bored man... then later.. had lunch.... after lunch.. went back to apartment... n muh housemate.. asked me to seremban n watch.."the village"... the story line is 'quite' interesting... but.. i'm still not satisfied..with the movie....
after watched the movie.. muh fren picked all of us up...n went to Nilai3 ... hahaha.. i bought a new desk... kewl... hahaha so starting from today i can online.. in a good posture..."as if" hahahha... later on , we went to nite market.. n one of muh houzmate maz.. got dis crayzee idea.. she wanted to cook.. so all we bought from nite market juz.. the ingredients...
final it comes to the end.... the food was delicious.... ALHAMDULILLAH... thanks to Allah... kenyang!!!!!..... hafta sign out buhbye.....
arduous at 8/17/2004 11:47:00 PM finally... this page is fully uploaded..... hmm.. last week, i went back home...guess what?? me' casa looked like was hit by an andrew tornado... hahahah it was very chaotic... i cuddn't stand it so.. i did evrything dat i cud... such s.. sweeps the floor, wash the floor,settle the messiness in living room.. later muh lil' sista help me out by cleaning the toilets... erm later on dat nite.. went out wif muh beloved bee.. for a quick supper...n the de days goes by.. later i watch AF with muh lil sis n muh dad.. it was very entertaining...i'd haf fun... the next day .. mum n muh bro got back from UK... hehehhe i got a new pair of boots... never had an idea to own a pair of boots.. i've tried it on... n.. hahah i cuddn't find a way to put it off.... hahahaha then muh mum gave me.. 3t-shirts.. nice.. n A'eh gave me an adidas orange jacket.... it's lovely... hahahha kewl.. within 1 day i haf lotsa new stuff.. oops... sowee.. didnt realize dat the time goes by so quick.. hafta do revision.. so any one out there who read muh so-not-entertaining blogg wish me all the for my test.. 2today.. c'ya later... chiow...
arduous at 8/10/2004 02:44:00 AM
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